Shadows of the Moon

Bright the day everyone ~ I hope this entry finds you all happy if not somewhat happy. I haven't written in a couple of days or commented in journals because I've been mourning Heathen, I still am. I haven't had the desire for much of anything the last few days. I miss him so much and Kizmet isn't eating normally either. She looks and looks for him and cries.

I was initially going to have him cremated because I absolutely hated the idea of burying him, but because of the cost involved (which by the way is a major rip off, you can cremate a homeless person for less than you can a cat) we wound up burying him. He's under the huge old oak tree in the front yard, I'm going to make him a little plot with rocks and a small headstone, then I'm going to plant catnip all around it, he loved his catnip. Cindy says if we ever sell this house that we will take him with us wherever we go. That helped quite a bit. I feel so guilty about not cremating him, the idea of him just moldering in the ground grieves me. One of his pictures is on my altar with his collar on it. Damn I miss him.

On with more interesting things, I'm sure you don't want to hear me moan and weep about the demise of my baby (some of you won't mind because I know you understand, but then there are others that find it so uncomfortable or silly for someone to feel that deeply for what they might consider JUST a animal).

The election is today...who do you think will win? I don't know who. What I want is for the person who will do the best for this country to win. Maybe what we do need is a fresh perspective, someone not embroiled with the back slamming and the old politics as usual stand. I've almost lost faith in all of the system. Quite a few people are saying that it doesn't matter who we vote for, it's the electoral college that decides, not the people. I wonder if the same farce will happen between Obama and McCain that happened with Bush vs. Gore, the lies and the manipulating. It's exhausting.
I'm hoping that once the election is over with people will start opening their wallets again, the economy is hitting Cindy and I really hard and I'm sure that it is affecting most everyone out there within a certain income bracket just AS hard. Fears about buying necessities, health care, maintaining and keeping their jobs. Something has to happen and it needs to happen soon.

Let me say one thing. Thanks to all of you that wrote and expressed your sympathy about Heathen passing on to the Summerland. It made me feel somewhat better to know that there were/are people that really care out there. I'm not going to state names but you know who you are. I know who you are because the sincerity echoed across the miles to my heart & I love you for it.
Blessings**